As the temperatures cool, a time when I pull out my boots and sweaters, and my kids plan their Halloween costumes, I’m reminded of our adoption story: a season when the Lord brought our son home.
He’s five years old now, but he was in our hearts long before he grew in another woman’s belly. When I was pregnant with my first child, I could control things: the foods I put into my body, whether I followed the doctors instructions, the labor and delivery preparation, and so much more.
Yet, this time, everything was left up to a 14-year-old girl. She had verbally promised to place this child in my arms, but had no legal obligations. My husband and I had been down this road twice, which both times turned out to be a dead end, and we were fearful, but our desire to grow our family was greater than the fear, and we were left with no choice but to trust God’s plan.
In the waiting, I had only the words of the Lord to cling to, and I was especially grateful for His truth during this time when nothing else was guaranteed. I could have allowed the fear of so many things to overwhelm me and cause me to miss those early moments with my son, but I chose to trust His plan and have hope for the future He had for us. Which included being okay if His plan did not include this child we longed for. Thankfully, the Lord answered our prayers, and we brought our son home three days after he was born.
In the midst of the joy and heartache of our son’s adoption, there was an overwhelming sense of love that we felt towards his birth-family, a beautiful and selfless love that Jesus lavishes on us. And it’s because of Christ’s love towards us that we have been able to whole-hardheartedly embrace and love our son’s birth-family in a way that we never could have imagined. So this week, as we celebrate his birthday and look back on the past five years, and the beautiful relationship the Lord gave us with our son’s birth family, I stand in awe of how He truly does have a beautiful plan for each of us.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
Someone else gave us the most amazing gift of life that could ever be given, and I had absolutely nothing to do with it. I could not control that journey, and now I know the Lord used that time as a gentle reminder of who was in control and who I ultimately had to trust.
Some seasons are cold, messy, confusing, and full of tears, but I’m grateful that our adoption story included trust in the Lord – the final result can be so much better that we will ever understand on this side of eternity.
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